Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The entrance exam

They handed me the ticket to my bright future. All sealed.

I was always told that this is the secret to success. Work hard.

I did.

But the only key to this secret chamber I had, was an allotted admit card number. Two lakh, thirty thousand, six hundred and one. And three hours to crack it.

You may start. Now.

Q1: A triangular wave pulse on a string with a tension F is moving in the positive x direction with a velocity.....

It will take some time. But it will come. I know.

Q2: A source of sonic oscillations S and an observer O start moving along positive x and positive y axis ….

Don’t let it interfere. No distractions. A minute more and it should strike. I know.

Q3: When heat is added to the gas, the temperature increases and the gas expands…..

Just have to remain cool. Calm. Concentrate.

Q4: If the gas is in a rigid container, then the volume remains constant and the pressure increases…..

Breathe in. Breathe out. It will equalize. It should.

Q5: A small block of mass m is placed inside a hollow cone rotating about a vertical axis with angular velocity…..

Hollow? But I remember. I remember cramming it. I must know.

Q6: The arrangement is in a horizontal plane. The particle with mass m is restricted to move in an elliptical orbit with given dimensions…..

No. NO. I know it. It is just a matter of time. It will come out. It has to.

Q7: An unknown resistance is to be determined using known resistances if their corresponding null points are.…..

Hell. Why is there so much friction? It used to flow freely before. God please help.

Q8: The system shown comes to rest. Assume that a can roll slipping along the incline…..

Am I loosing it? I can’t. Didn’t anyone know it’s not mine? It is theirs. Their one and only dream. What answer will I give them?

Q9: A wire when stretched by a weight of a solid gives a frequency f. .The fundamental tone oscillations are excited with angular frequency…..

What?

Q10: A uniform rope of mass m and length l is whirled in a horizontal circle about one of its ends…..

The only answer.

Q11: A wave of frequency n propagates through the rope; find the phase difference between the top and the bottom of the rope.

As the rope of length l and mass m hangs from the ceiling.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Sleeping Beauty

It happens twice in your life.

Ashen .I called her ‘Ashy’. She was as white as the sheet that enveloped her. Maybe fairer. Just like me.

She didn’t see me yet. Her tiny little eyes tightly shut. My own sleeping beauty.

I am not an artist and such is the lack of imagination that I don’t remember even having a dream. But this canvas I held in my hands enthused all the shades I had bottled up within me. All stocked up, they now reasoned their existence.

Oxford defines, ‘Feelings are abstract nouns and can’t be perceived by the five senses’. Then how could I see so much love, hear this peace and touch such joy? With this nascent heaven on earth I could sense it all. Every single bit of it. They say you could see it in my eyes. Hear every single click coupled with the flash in my soul. I guess they could, because I was filming the entire roll myself.

Lights.
Camera.
Action.

I saw her crawl out of my hands. Those tiny little things trying to carry the weight of that explosive curiosity. Her freshness wriggled out of my aging folds. Did you see her take that first step? I barely could, as she raced past me. I had to run. But I was slower. She had much more life. I couldn’t catch up.

I get really tired with all this running around, but I have to stay awake so that she doesn’t sleep. I know I must have fallen asleep somewhere. I missed all the exams. But I made it to the stage just in time to see her pose for the picture. You should see that photograph; I think the degree caught my pride reflecting in its cover.

We came home really exhausted. It is difficult to arrange for such a big celebration when your legs wobble. But tomorrow I don’t think they will shake on the aisle. I tell you, it is as white as the towel she came in. Maybe the veil should have been thinner.

I told you they wouldn’t tremble. But its a tremor every time her kids come home. I tell them about their mother, how quiet she was. They don’t listen. No one does, anymore.

She is pale again. That white envelope again.

Something is trembling. Maybe my eyes. They are trying to hold on to something. Something that is a part of me.

It falls on her closed eyes.

Cut.

My own sleeping beauty. Her tiny little eyes tightly shut. She never saw me.

It happens twice in your life. Whole life flashes in front of you. Once when your own life starts slipping away.
And second when your child never breathes.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

?????????????????????

Through Life how I went,
Hours,the minutes, the seconds spent.

Saw through worry,
felt every bit,
All through glory,
through all the shit.

For all, same old fashion,
For me,life took a turn,
was it heat of passion,
or a scarring burn.

Were they frames of past,
the blue sky and the roses red,
or a dark shadow to cast,
on future yet to be led.

Thinking,sinking all through the night,
what to do, where to go,
Heart straining to see the light,
but then alas I still dont know.............